Your God might not exist if… I imagine Jeff Foxworthy might be a great person to lead this series. But, alas, it’s just me.
Have you ever thought that maybe the God you are praying to and worshiping doesn’t even exist? Let me help you pick your jaw up off the floor, friend. Hear me out.
What if the way you see God is all wrong? What if you are attributing characteristics to God that are so far from the truth that you are missing out on who He really is? And who you really are?
Your God Might Not Exist If…
You see. I’ve thought about God as this deity who lives up high on a throne distant from all of us here on earth. Just watching and manipulating.
When trouble comes (and it does), I have a tendency to forget who God is and in effect, who I am.
He punishes me when I mess up (not in a “loving Father looking down on his daughter and thinking, well, dang, kiddo you’re going to have to miss out on ice cream tonight” kind of way). More like King Triton when he finds out Ariel has her secret grotto with human knick knacks in it. (Sorry, I’ve got the Littles so Disney tends to be a go-to for analogies.)
Now, don’t get me wrong. God’s wrath is very real but so is His amazing love for us. That’s the part I always forget about.
Remember How Close God Really Is
From the very beginning, He made sure to stay so close to us because He loves us so much. If you don’t understand that, you and I need to chat sometime.
I want to be your personal cheerleader, sister! I’ll even grab a uniform and pom-poms and put my hair in a super high ponytail with a bow twice the size of my head if that helps.
For a long time, I didn’t understand how close He really was – and IS. I started to lose hope in who I am and even more so, in who He is.
But if we actually seek to learn who He is, it will be life-transforming! After all, we are created in His image, right? And talk about a personal cheerleader. He is the best!
I want to give you a little glimpse. But first…
Which God Are You Worshipping?
Over the years, I’ve read about God’s actions and his character but I’ve allowed my own circumstances to add my own (very) fallible character onto Him. Because of that, I’ve been shaken in times of struggle – stopped in my tracks and believing that I’m unloved, unworthy, unimportant, among other things.
It has caused me to see God as Someone He is not and left a gap in our relationship. He has seemed so distant because of it. This distance has caused two things:
1. An opening for the enemy to grab a foothold on my thoughts
2. A gap in the knowledge of who I truly am as a child of the one true God
My guess is that you are starting to see some of these things in your view of him, too.
What Makes Believing God So Difficult?
I have projected the character of people who have authority in my life and who I have been hurt by, to form the character of the God I have believed in. Absent and emotionally unavailable father figures in my life rank highest on the list.
Despite knowing God’s stories of redemption and love for the humans He created, I spent many years not knowing Him as I should. It is easy for me to believe the lies that others tell me (particularly the enemy). And I can’t fight battles when I don’t have the right weapon to combat my enemy.
I have viewed God as a punishing God. One who holds grudges. One who is absent when I need Him and distant on a day-to-day basis. He doesn’t love me. He won’t forgive me. More than anything, I feel like I have to work for His love.
When I pray for something and it doesn’t quite turn out how I had hoped, I have a tendency to think that “God has a sense of humor” but really my heart feels like I wasn’t specific enough in my prayer and God used it to play a trick on me.
After all, we all know the quote by Woody Allen, “When you want to make God laugh, tell him your plans.”
That is not the longing of His heart though, friend.
That’s not even a little bit true.
Recommended Reading: The Model Prayer: What the Bible Says About How to Pray
Does God Play Tricks on Me?
I saw a YouTube video once of a girl (about 16 years old), who asked for a car for Christmas. On Christmas morning, she opened a box with keys in it. In her excitement, she rushed to the garage to see what she anticipated would be a brand new car. What sat inside the garage was a Hot Wheels car. Everyone let out a big belly laugh. My family even chuckled at it.
But the girl was crushed.
Sometimes my “answered” prayers feel a little like that.
And whenever I mess up, I never “get away” with it. In fact, I feel like every “bad” (or rather, human) thought turns into consequences. I feel so much pressure to be perfect – not only in my actions but also in my thoughts. It is so discouraging – and frankly, exhausting. I can’t possibly live up to that.
Who can, though!
As I sit here and think about the lies I believe, the more I realize that I have been viewing God as if he is an immature teenager bent on creating misery for others for His own sadistic entertainment.
(LORD, please forgive me for saying it out loud – well, writing it for public consumption.)
That is not who He is though.
In this series, we are going to dive a little deeper into three of God’s names. Because if we can start to see who He really is, then we can realize who we really are.
Like David, who went into the fight against Goliath with nothing but his sling and His God, we will be victorious, too.
And I’ll be happy to put down my sling for a moment to grab some pom-poms for you, sister!